never thought I’d actually make it out of this week. Alive. Feel really #blessed to at least have nice classmates and Pas and Murph to actually keep me sane during lessons or I’ll just more or less be a zombie. A super stoned one at that. Didn’t go to school on monday and I realised tues was vday. Omg,first time in so many years I forgot. Sianjipua. I really miss my councile clique friends. I REALLY REALLY MISS THEM SO MUCH )”””””’: THEY KEEP ME ALIVE ): Haven’t really properly met up with them yet either. I hate my life (rather) 

Vday was pretty ok but the worse I’ve had in the past 1234567890 years of my life,honestly. I felt super alone. It wasn’t the same anymore. My girls weren’t around,my buds weren’t around,my homies weren’t around. I was, alone. But IT’S JUST A TUESDAY. Hahahaha,I’m fine really not that I want a boyfriend or anything I just miss the company and fun :x

Every morning I wake up and I dread going to school. But by the second period I’m used to it. Problem is, actually going to school. Oh well, I wish my health didn’t suck and my friends were still around. Now I feel empty and lost. Yeah,I still have friends but many are gone ): Sometimes I feel that they’re gone forever. Sometimes. 

School hasn’t exactly been the most exciting in my life currently. In the past, my schooldays were much exciting than my weekends. Now, my weekends are so much more fulfilling than my weekdays. Explains why I dread going to school so much. Furthermore, I’ve used up my parent letters for the term. Have to endure the next three weeks. Not gonna be easy with the CA tests next week which every teacher expects us to study for. Every day is just studying,studying,studying. Not that I am actually really studying cause I spent the past two three nights stoning and debating if I should do notes cause there wasn’t any homework. I know I should be studying but gotta find the motivation to do so.

I really miss having HTHTs but recently I either have no one or no energy ): it’s getting to be really depressing at times. I thank God for my family. They’re the only ones keeping me sane currently other than the two mentioned above. In the past,I used to love school and enjoy it and didn’t really like being at home. Now,I’d rather study at home everyday instead of going to school T.T I don’t think anyone actually really understands this but I don’t blame y’all cause none of y’all have experienced it. 

Bought a lot of snax today,my way of de-stressing. I love my dad so much sometimes,he understands me so well. Though we do have moments where we disagree with each other. 

Still searching for a guy best friend.

Till then,

adieu.

We may cross paths and meet at cross roads but we will end up nowhere, together.